Bentonville, Arkansas, USA
The study I did with an incredibly intuitive, talented artist was when I finally figured out WHY I painted. First question she asked me was, “Why? Why do you paint?” I was stumped, and then started making up bogus answers that sounded good. Or so I thought. She saw right through the fog and indecision. “Paula, why do you paint?” It was then I settled into listening to my internal voice about the actual why. “I paint, because I never allowed myself the time to PLAY!” It was a total surprise to me. Was that true? Had I never allowed myself to actually PLAY? I thought that when I was painting I was playing….turns out the reason I was painting was so that I could eventually support myself. I DEMANDED that of myself. I never allowed myself to just play and make mistakes.
AHA! Total V-8 moment. When I played, when I allowed myself the luxury of losing time, getting lost in the process rather than the result, the actual “play” of my gift, I created Mona Lisa’s.
And so began the unfolding of me, my internal knowing, that I am here to play – to teach others to play and to LOVE what they are doing.
My paintings unfold and develop intuitively. I converse with the canvas, sometimes starting with an intention, or sometimes just allowing and knowing that this process works best for me. I paint a layer, and then glaze – layer after layer – allowing the layers to build upon themselves creating the depth and richness in the paintings that I love. I find that even the “mistakes” frequently become an intrinsic part of the painting, and I instinctively know that this is much as our lives are. Our “mistakes” or learning experiences as I prefer to call them, are layered with time and other experiences, creating the fine masterpieces that we are today. And so…I say…Let the PLAY and the JOY of the creation begin!!